拜佛

这一天，出席了久违的佛学会活动。一个学期断（sem break) + 新年，没有到法悦阁上课了。
成佛之道，这次是第一次上课。之前有想过中途插班，但毕竟在下资质低，唯恐跟不上进度，因此迟迟不敢去。直至这个学期，沾了人家的脸皮，就厚着脸皮，硬着头皮，去上课。虽然前面的内容都没上到，但还是可以听得懂课程，谁叫政纲老师讲得好！


课程开始前，老师让我们拜佛了。记得第一次拜佛，是在去年的辅导员培训营。那一次，第一次体验到那么慢的拜佛方式，当然那时候的麻雀，没有很投入于其。一直想着几时结束。只是越是想着结束，时间就越难熬。接下来，也有几次拜佛的机会，那时候已经习惯这么慢的拜佛，因此也没有再心烦着几时结束。


真正爱上拜佛，是在静修营。第一次觉得拜佛时间，不够长不够慢。第一次觉得拜佛可以那么享受，那么愉悦。细细地观察自己身体的动作，每一个细微的变化。同时观察自己心里。


这一次的拜佛，麻雀找不到那阵子的喜悦。心里，一直不停地在跑，一直跑，越跑脚步越混乱，悦跑就越远。心是那么的乱，那么的不安。麻雀不断尝试着让自己专注于当下，然，心就越抓，跑地越快。这时候，才发现自己多久没有好好关注自己的心了。不知道自己在想什么，生活就这样一直盲目地跑。人家叫我做什么，就做什么。失去了人生的方向。麻雀，你在做什么？


总是盲目地坐在电脑前。盲目地赶着去上课（这几天一直迟到）。这阵子，睡眠质量差了。到了深夜的四点，原本该累得倒床就睡，但我却没有。翻转难眠的长夜陪伴着麻雀，直到要天亮，身体才慢慢进入休息状态，可是天亮也意示着要上课了，谁叫这几天都是八点上课。迟到就盲目地赶着时间。今天甚至翘课了，但却有个好眠~


这几天，过得很累。拜佛时，麻雀才看到了。原来自己那么漫无目的。


也发现到自己一直都忘了自己之前发愿要天天静坐了。


是时候，该从迷茫中醒来了。也该实践自己发的愿！


加油了，麻雀！

法句经（之一）

I went to Dharma class today. I was lazy going before, I meant before Year two semester two.
It means that I have lost one year + one semester chance to hunt treasure thus I got to be doing more right effort
I have been told by others that the dharma class for this semester is pretty fun as it is full of stories(stories with great teaching)
Then I have been waiting for it until today. It proved my waiting is worth.
As if you did view my articles this few days, they are full of negative emotions
Teaching today has enlightened me
I will say the class is just awesomely fit for me when I am in such condition
This semester, sir will be sharing the sutra "法句经“ with us
The first sentence he told us today has already a great knowledge for me to discover and to practise
It is " 诸恶莫作，众善奉行，自净其意，是诸佛教”
Sir said that if someone ever asked you what Buddhism about, you can present one this sentence as it embodies all
To translate, it is "Don't do bad, do good, clarify your mind/brain, this is the teaching of Buddha"
It is easy to talk yet hard when come to walk it
When your attitude, words and thinking have ever hurt people
Or when you are expressing negative emotion to people
You are doing bad
I admit that I have done bad through my blog
I am sorry to whom I have ever hurt
Try to be more understanding, respect people, and wish people even they did wrong
Praise one when they do good
Face and solve the problem with a positive thinking and mind
Then everything can be solved smoothly and positively
This is the thing I need to learn and keep firmly in mind
That's why I love Buddha teaching, always can find the answer I want~
Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Sammasambuddhassa