麻雀说故事

人生最大的侮辱莫过于此


不熟的小表妹：姐姐
麻雀：嗯？什么事啊，妹妹？
不熟的小表妹：姐姐，你几岁？
麻雀：哦？我啊，21岁咯。。。
不熟的小表妹：哦！21岁？做么那么矮的？
麻雀：。。。没办法，就是长不高咯，那你咧？你几岁？
不熟的小表妹：跟你差很远啦。我四年级。。。。


怎样？生理上、心智上的攻击一次过排山倒海而来，淹没麻雀于无形。
今年的圣诞，真是美丽~
圣诞快乐~

圣诞节咯~

一直到外边传来了圣诞，埋首在新年饼干堆的麻雀才惊觉圣诞节的到来
圣诞节了耶！
“ Silent Night, Holy Night。。。”忘了歌词！
听着门外人们报佳音的银银歌声，麻雀特别想念前几年的云顶圣诞报佳音之旅
麻雀家，在圣诞期间，一向来都没有什么圣诞气氛，主要因为家里并没有庆祝圣诞节
真正开始庆祝圣诞，就是在第二个家-云顶
那时候有点糊里糊涂地跟着大队上云顶开始14天的报佳音行程，一唱就唱了3、4年，现在没得再上了~ ><
现在回想，那一段日子还是甜蜜的~
今年的圣诞，麻雀选择留在家里，陪着母亲，度过这个佳节
抱歉，推了朋友们的邀约，因为每年圣诞都与大伙儿聚在一块儿，因此今年麻雀选择呆在家里当宅女
就算没有大肆庆祝，但至少可以和家人度过（毕竟不确定明年是否有机会和家人同庆圣诞）
这也是一个温馨的圣诞夜~
也祝大家有一个快乐的圣诞节！
Merry Christmas! Ho ho ho!

My 1st trip -To The Land of Smile Day 2 (Part 3)

Silom, the red light district

After the session of cleaning in our hotel, we departed to Silom, the famous yet notorious red light district in Bangkok. Before that, I chatted with Mr. Wind through Facebook. I told him that I am going to the red light district to watch Thai girl show. He warned me as many tourists were being cheated there, especially now only both Karen and I. So he told me that it is better for us to "watch" (peep) outside.
The street (Silom) was bustling with noise and excitement when we reached there. It was already 9 or 10pm and the world is seemed like a sleepless night city. People in sexy and hot dress were walking along the road. Of course, the things that have never absent from are the stalls along the road. The street was liven up because of them. 

Various of massage centers and restaurants along the road.

We walked into the alley which lead us to a deplorable reality. There were uncountable Japanese restaurants, as well as massage center stand along the roadside. And many females were standing along the side. Some even sat on the chair in front of the restaurants and waited for their "client". I believe you know what's their occupation even though I did not make it clear. 

The girls were sitting along the road and waiting for their clients.

The street is basically divided into three part which are Thai girl show, Muscle Thai men show and Lady Boy show ( I have forgotten the particular name for each, but it generally meant that). We walked through the road where the three area centralized at. I found that the adult world is complicated and grieved.
I understand they are forced to be that. They are too poor to raise their family thus many of the girls or boys join the industry just to earn a mouth of rice. 
I saw them wearing sexy and beautiful clothes with thick make up, and their smile was hanging on their face. Yet it is merely an adorned case which decorated a spiritless corpse. I see it even sorrowful.
I would say I can only respect their and their condition.
Before I forgot, another thing I would like to mention about the hotel we stayed. I was changing and changing the TV channel swiftly. The hotel is so caring that there are variety of languages channel available for the tourist to choose. I stopped my finger when I saw a scene which really attracted me. Sarcastically, there was nothing in the scene, with only the outside scene of the lift, in black and white color.

I gazed at the monitor, attentively. I found nothing. I quickly look for the TV menu the hotel provided. It stated In House TV. I was like , "What the *tut*!"

"With you enjoy our entertainment", yeah, what an entertain~

They placed a CCTV in front of the lift and showed it to us. It is kind of like intruding our privacy. I told Karen that what if I saw someone killing one another through the monitor, what should I do. She shouted :" Choi Choi Choi!". Then there came our massage girls.
We enjoyed nice massage that night and we fall asleep.

My 1st trip -To The Land of Smile Day 2 (Part 2)

The Temple of Dawn

The manager uncle fetched us to the exit of the temple and called a Tuk Tuk for us. He told the driver where we are going and when the driver told us the price it cost, he helped us to bargain.

Thai girl looking in The Exotic Center

The Exotic Center is totally not what I thought previously. I thought it is a manufacturer/factory however in contrast, it is like a shopping mall with air conditional, more than twenty saleswomen, with luxury decoration and thousand of jewelery. I looked at the price tag. It is obviously not a place for me, but not Karen. She has bought a ring there.

We have our lunch at the third floor in The Exotic Center, after the high recommended by the saleswoman who served Karen. We were asking any nice Tomyam around the center and we got a good news from her that the tomyam at the third floor is the local one. 

Local Curry

Besides, she is the one who told us that if we were going to order Tomyam in Thailand, we have to specific tell the vendor to add spice and sour. This is because most of the tourists could not drink spice thus Thai vendors change the recipe in order to cater the tourists.

However, to our disappointment, the aunty in third floor did not cook Tomyam that day but only curry. We decided to stay and taste the curry, since the saleswomen highly recommended the stall. And it didn't disappointed us though, it tasted good and original. The lunch in The Exotic Center cost us 130 baht.

Another notable benefit of The Exotic Center is that they provide free transportation after you purchase their jewelery.

Grand Palace

We got to Grand Palace then for free. Karen spent 350 baht each person which is 700 baht totally. And followed by Wat Pho where we just simply walked through as we were running out of time. We were rushing for the boat as it ends the service at 5pm.

I managed to capture the view of the land from the top

We took a cross over boat to the front land where the Temple of Dawn, Wat Arun located. The entrance fees is 50 baht. I climbed up to the top and took some photos. At there we found Thailand really got many fruits stalls around.

The friendly fruit seller

We took the boat then and got down at Ratchawong Pier. Our destination for this time is Yaowarat, the China Town. Karen's friend, Nicole told her that we can have meal at a restaurant called Nam Sing. Hence we asked everyone around, just to get to Nam Sing. I enjoyed the process of asking for direction. 

This dessert is really notable!

Besides, we found a really tasty local dessert at the road side. It is really impressed both of us that we missed it after the day.

The defend wall of Grand Palace

Grand Palace

China Town in Bangkok

My 1st trip -To The Land of Smile Day 2 (Part 1)

It was the first morning we were in Thailand. I woke up at 6am and Karen was still sleeping soundly.Then I decided to "re-sleep". 

We took Tuk Tuk to the nearest MRT station, Sala Daeng around 10am then.Our plan for the day was to visit all the temples in the other side of Bangkok (which is impossible we found later). You can see rows of stall along the road in the morning which ambience's like a night market. Seriously, you can find various stalls everywhere, range from Pirated CD, drinks, food to clothes.

We decided to have our breakfast in one of the restaurant beside the station. Karen said she wanted to have some soup for that morning.

The two girl who sell noodles

The thing that the travelers have always encountered in other foreign land is the language problem. We could not communicate with the ladies who sell noodles. They don's speak English and we could not understand Thai. We acted like duck and chicken. The result came out that I pointed to the noodle and show one (means one soup noodle) then she nodded her head. I found body language/ non-verbal language is much important in our daily life. Soon, we managed to enjoy a full bowl of noodle soup after a round of "movement of hands and feet". I have a bowl of noodle soup while sister has her bihun soup.

my noodle soup~

When I was busy capturing photos, we heard a familiar sentence : "Ni Men Yao He Shen Me?" (What do you want to have for drink?) The feeling of excited is hard to describe when you heard your mother tongue in a place which speak different language. He is the boss of the restaurant.I asked him whether he is a Chinese and he replied me that he is an original Thai but can speak Mandarin(fluently).

The boss who speaks Mandarin to us

Back to the question, we asked him any drink(tea) he would recommend for those first come to Thailand.

Ultimately, he brought us two cups of "Cha Suet" - tea with ice (=.=lll)

He told us that Thais love ice,thus we can always find there are a lot of stalls selling tea or coffee with ice in the early morning.The breakfast cost us 84 baht

 

After that, we took MRT to Siphan Taksin then. The ticket is 25 baht per person. According to the guidebook, we have to go through Chao Phraya River in order to visit those temples.The handbook showed us that it is Asia Venice where you can enjoy the boat travel. "Indeed, if you compared with Malacca river", said Karen.

At least, Chao Phraya River is clean and huge, the scenery along the river are enjoyable as well, and with the absence of "four leg snake".

The beautiful scenery along the water road

We got down from Tha Tien Pier (Pier refers to port) and headed to our first stop, Wat Pho (Wat refers to temple). We met a Tuk Tuk's driver in front of Wat Pho who told us that it was Buddha Day thus many wat(s) closed until afternoon. And we were only allowed to enter after the praying ceremony. The driver suggested us to go other place first.

Pig Statue

He offered himself to be our guide with low price thus we decided to take a ride on his Tuk Tuk.When we reached somewhere, he pointed to a statue and asked us to go doing some pray and soon we found that it is a pig statue which was built by a queen who born in pig year. After that he brought us into a wat and he told us that it was a royal wat where elite prayed in the past time.

The Tuk Tuk's driver

Meanwhile, his phone rang. He asked for a excuse and talked while we were still busy enjoying our photographing time. He came back within 5 minutes and his face changed. He told us that it was his wife calling and his daughter was sent to hospital due to an accident.

Manager

Karen squeezed the transportation fees and some tips into his hand for his friendly being. He was touched and left then. We do not think he was cheating us, although he might. Yet the reason for believing him as we believe him as a pious Buddhist. (Buddhist can't lie)
We were so lucky. Since after the sad driver left, a man in his mid-age approached us when he saw both of us. He asked us some formal questions that you guys can imagine. And he volunteered himself to introduce to wat to us. And according to him, he is the manager of the wat where we were.
He is indeed a professional commentator who explained from the wall picture to the building structure. He has even showed us the workers who were working hard ( the wat was under construction that time)

Thais use basket to lift their material

The interior of the Royal Temple

"I tell you. Even the way of construction, different countries have different ways." Indeed, the worker used basket to lift the materials up to the top. He invited us to sit and started to talk to us. He told us many about Thailand in terms of things that Thailand famous of, history and so on. He introduced us a place which called The Exotic Center where we can get cheaper manufacturer price of gold or other gems.
This is the place where really not suitable for me.

I felt extremely happy when I saw the monk. He is so kind.

He told me that his daughter is one year older than me

天下没有理所当然的事

他：你进去吧，我等你进去才走，不然很危险。
我：谢谢哦！你真好！

她：来，我来帮你拿吧，不碍事。
我：唉呀，谢谢你。你真好！

我：你看，他们都是这样这样这样那样那样那样地对我的，你看他们多好！
妈妈：。。。

以上的画面熟悉吗？再熟悉不过了吧，因为这是我们总会面对、遇到的。
外面的世界总是特别好，外面的朋友也总是特别亲切、待你特别好的。
我们总爱高嚷：出外靠朋友嘛！
然而多少人在喊着：在家靠父母了呢？
没有吧？很少吧？
因为父母总是在你遇上危难时，那么地自己送上门
因为父母总是在你遇上困难时，那么地默默而无闻
因为父母的奉献总是无私、没有条件的，而我们身为儿女的也总是一而再，再而三得从父母身上不断地掏着、掏着，掏到有一天，干了，父母还是毫无任何怨言
我们总是觉得父母的体谅照顾是应该的，是与生俱来的
就算你我不珍惜，父母还是会拿他们那热脸贴我们的冷屁股，积极献殷勤
“没办法嘛，谁叫我是他们生，他们当然有义务照顾我了！”
因此我们总是学不会珍惜父母的爱，我们高喊要发挥地球爱，友情爱，珍惜身边的人
然而有谁真正珍惜了父母呢？
身边人的定义也只不过是身边的情人，而非亲人
是谁说了父母的义务肯定是照顾孩子了？
你看那社会上父母把孩子遗弃的事件一再发生
你甚为愤怒地指责不负责任的违法者，然而你最应该做的理应是感谢你父母没有抛弃了你，而含辛茹苦地把你抚养成人
父母对于儿女的爱，甚过于朋友载送你回家而多逗留的那几分钟
父母对于儿女得关怀，与朋友随手帮你拎样东西比起，简直是无从比较
孩子，你该感谢你父母对你的任性的宠爱，一再包容孩子的犯错
孩子，你该好好珍惜父母的爱，
趁佳节将至，开始珍惜身边的亲人，好好陪在家人身边吧！

My brother

We were having our dinner.
It has been such a long time that our family did not have dinner together. Although there were only mum, brother and I that time whilst Maxine sister was taking care of her baby daughter in living room.
When mum went to kitchen to have some soup filled, brother then walked to his room and came out with his purse. He handed me something -- RM50 soon after when he opened his purse.
I was shocked.
He said:" Hey, this is my first time giving you pocket money though not much."
I can see he felt shy, and so to me.
Indeed, this is my first time receiving pocket money from him after he started his job.
I understand his condition. He is now working in Malacca as an insurance assistant manager under Public Bank( if I am not mistaken). His client is not any single of us but banks. He deals with banks.
He lives alone in Malacca (ok, he got a Malaccan girlfriend then). Yet he has to settle everything by himself. Thus I always understand he is not rich and I have never thought of asking for pocket money from him, never.
Mummy always worries about him who refused to work at Kuala Lumpur due to the terrible traffic condition, according to him.
And the chances for us to see him become lesser and lesser.
I hold the money he handed to me. And looked at mum and Maxine sister.
I wanted to give him back but he rejected and asked me to keep it and do not spend randomly.
i accepted it at last. Maxine sister laughed at me and said: " Don't pretending la, hahaha."
Then the awkward situation ended with we all laughing out loudly.
The scene switched to our carpark.
Mum was hugging brother, hardly.
As to Maxine sister and I.
Brother is going back to Malacca.
And we have no idea when he will be home again.
Mum seems worried and sad.

34 more days, I will be going to Taiwan.
My friends are going to Kelantan tomorrow yet I could not follow as I have to save travel fees for my Taiwan trip
This is my second trip to a foreign country. The first one is Thailand which I have never planned before.
I am anticipating yet feeling strange. The feeling is so ambivalent you know.
I know what I am questioning.
It is actually not a travel style which I have been looking for.
I want to wander, I want to walk in the country but not travel through or walk through.
I have once, discussed with my Taiwan travel partner regarding a day trip, that almost lead to an argument
But we stayed silent when our volume started increasing.
And I compromised at the end. I decided to follow the trip though it is not the way I like but the place I wish to go. So deal la!
After seeing the article of Uncle Seng, it inspired me more.
I know this is the way I want to do. Although it is dangerous and challenging, I still like it~hehe
I don't really want luxury travel (though I can enjoy delicious food and stay the fine and comfortable hotel)
Nevertheless, I AM STILL CAN'T WAIT FOR MY TAIWAN TRIP~~~

以前的那个男孩

今晚，下雨了
乌云遮蔽了天空
夜里的星星也任性地和女孩玩起了躲猫猫

前几天，星空
调皮的星星累了，慵懒地瘫在空中
任地上人们的指指点点也懒得爬起累坏了的身躯，躲起来
还有稍有余劲的陨石们，跑得太快而与那地球的守护层相撞，擦出一次次的火花
地上的人们，一次接一次地叫嚣着
兴奋的人们，陆陆续续从温暖的被窝跑了出来
冒着冷夜里的徐徐凉风，双双对对地望着美丽的星空
等待那瞬间的光，一眨眼就逝去无踪了
就像昙花一现般，让人又爱又恨
感情，也像那天上的流星，一瞬即逝
一旦逝去了就再也找不回了

某一个星空下，女孩席地而坐
为睹那划过天空一瞬间却迎来地上一段日子热烈讨论的主角--流星一风采
没有热闹的场景陪伴，因为天空即将亮了
女孩，嘴里哼着歌曲
“有多少爱可以重来，有多少人值得等待。。。”
女孩，哼的是迪克牛仔版的悲伤情歌
这首歌，是那个男孩的歌
那个宠了女孩一次又一次，却也被女孩伤了一次又一次的男孩
女孩摸着秀发，摸着自己的头顶
当歌曲在脑海中不停荡漾着时，女孩在这被众星点缀得天空下，想起了那个男孩
什么时候开始，女孩喜欢上别人摸摸女孩的头的这个动作
那种被人疼爱着的感觉，让女孩恋上了
因为那个男孩的宠爱，让女孩以为是应该的，是应该拥有，是不用珍惜的
男孩负着伤，默默离开
这一份纯纯的感觉，在瞬间，消失无影
在迪克牛仔的歌声陪伴中，随即再也找不回了

在这个没有星星的夜空，显得更加的凄凉
女孩，想起了那个男孩
只是现在摸女孩头的，不再是那个男孩了

It's my life

Living in a country which was ranked as 36 in term of individualism ( adapted from Geert Hofstede. Samovar, L & Porter, R.E.(2007). Communication between cultures. 7th Ed. Thomson Wardsworth.), I am thus an individualistic person who sometimes practice high context culture( in term of my blog).

My housemates, as well as my roommate went back home after their paper since last weekend, which make me started to live in an individualistic life. Since Winnie went back Klang, I started possessing a room, a personal space where only reserve for me and where I called my own. I have never to live in a single room since I was born. And, I love the feeling to have own personal space, I found this.

I enjoyed studying by myself, alone at my own space, while my friends were studying at library. I went to restaurant, packed the lunch, and ate it alone. I was afraid of being alone, before this, especially having meal. I cycled to Tesco by myself. I watched movie in my room, all by myself. I watched meteor also, in the deep 5am while others were sleeping.

I jogs everyday in the evening. When I live alone, I live under poly-cronic style at which I view times flexible and I tend to do whatever I like whenever I want. I can sleep in the afternoon, and study the whole night, or the opposite. Or I can also switch off the light whenever I like, and the vice verse. However, I didn't see relationship as the center since I locked myself in my room, segregated myself from the outside world or ritual world. I am in present orientation in this period of time that I tend to hold the immediate moment as the most significant one and I enjoy it ( as I always said 把握当下). I view future as unknown as I have never known the paper question in advance. Hence, I can only absorb whatever I studied present.

Besides, I practice high context in my nest(my blog) where I always blog my own feeling that only my close friends understand, in term of my poem. You guys are hardly guessed what I want to express and I would like to make a clarification that the poem " The distance" is not refer to my love life, totally not (which CEO thought I talk of my love life). Only two of my friends know what it exactly mean.

I am not doubt, a freak who like to blog about I have studied for my paper. And I damn love C & C yet it is a waste that it is my short semester subject that Ms. Por did not really have time to tell us more. Though I might not score well in my Final but it has never decreased my love towards it. =p

At last but not the least, I would like to end my piece with my feeling right now.
I have been practicing the individualistic lifestyle lately. It is fun and flexible.
However, loneliness, is what an individualistic people always feel.
And individualistic people will always experience "the distance".

Guys, I am so surprise and touching that you have just gone through my dried and jumbled article. Thanks for the support~ And kindly don't mind with my broken english.
Have a nice day~