我很平凡，我很重要

这个是昨天决赛的辩题
这个我，其实很平凡，但是我知道自己也可以很重要
每个人，就像钟表里的小小螺丝，看似渺小，其实扮演的角色很重。没有螺丝，钟表的内部怎样建设起来；内部没法构成，又谈何钟表的功能呢？
妈妈，这个角色，你说他平凡吗？对，她很平凡
满街都是妈妈啊
不是每一个妈妈都有大学毕业的文凭；不是每个妈妈都有一份优薪工作；不是每个妈妈都能操一口流利的英文，甚至是华文
但你说她不重要吗？
没有妈妈，何来的国家首相？
没有妈妈，何来的重要大臣？
没有妈妈，哪来的天才？
没有妈妈，哪来的我们呢？
所以你说妈妈平凡，我也说，妈妈很重要
我很平凡，我很重要
因为我只有一个我，没有平凡的我，又怎样凸显不平凡的你的重要性？
所以我很重要

Devil sister

When I was in the camp, my devil Karen sis texted me last Friday far from Vietnam just to say this: I am now in Vietnam, jealous?
Hey, she promised to bring me there but now she went there ALONE!
She is so brave
She then called me yesterday and described her "lonely" trip to Vietnam
She was just suddenly has a thought and flew to Vietnam on Friday morning
According to her, she initially wanted to go Cambodia but no flight at that moment(Flight to cambodia only available at 7 in the morning)
She only decided to go Vietnam
Before hang up the call, she left one hope to me
"You faster go to check which weekend you are free then we go Cambodia together. Go Angkor Wat to take photo!"
And of course, I didn't forget to pour out my pitiness of the death of pinky
I know she understand~^^

Pinky is dead!

Today, my camera is officially announced to dead
It is ridiculous and sarcastic when I suddenly flashback the words I said last week
I told Mr. Jool that Karen sister is going to present me a DSLR
And the arrogant me even said that I started to feel lazy to deal with my pinky Olympus
Then I really have been so lazy to raise my eyebrows towards her
Letting her on my table without any care until today when I was going to Ipoh
I took her along with me so that I can capture things I like
Unfortunately, when I took out my camera and intended to switch on
She started to shouted "bi bi bi", something sound like protesting to me
She refused to show me her face and kept shouting
To my dismay, I have to declare her death that moment
Then I started to feel like losing something important in my life when I could not take photo
I am sorry, Pinky, for abandoning for times~
Don't angry la wei...

扎根坊

手臂的肌肉在疼着，但是还是想blogging一下，因为怕善忘的自己，下次又会忘了要泄些什么
这两天的工作坊，除了例行的说法，学了很多以外，麻雀也体会了很多
今天的总心得分享，在无厘头的情况下，麦克风丢在我眼前
当下也没有想到要说什么，就随口说了一些“训话”，然后也在词穷的情况下，把麦克风丢会圈子的中间了
后来听了不少人的分享，会想说：Ei，这个也可以分享的ho！怎么之前都没有想过
后来咯咯老板的分享，让麻雀脑袋旁的灯泡顿时亮起了
原来我也是不惯于分享的一个，或许时常习惯了把事情或心情收了起来，或习惯了把情绪转化成文字来表达，而不怎么喜欢分享了
因此每次在分享时，词穷了，因为有所保留了
这一次，让麻雀最有“成就感”的是在上志雄老师的课，没有打瞌睡了
记得第一个学期来上佛学班时，自己连连打瞌睡了
后来因为惭愧心，麻雀开始没有来上佛学班，直到上个学期才开始勤上佛学班
因此这一次的这堂“扎根”，让我感触极深
因为我可以保持精神（虽然前几分钟有处于打瞌睡的状态），且还回答了老师的问题
另一个让我也有深刻的就是学长分享的环节
当初咯咯老板跟我提到了这个环节的主持人时，我欣然接受了
因为当时候去醒觉营的时候，麻雀深深被这个环节的分享感动了
我们总是听着师父、老师的课来学习佛法，虽然受用，但似乎遥不可及，而学长的分享是与我们的生活比较相近的，也比较可以相应
我尽量把整个环节主持得既轻松又生动的，但是还是失败了
且还频频词穷了
词穷，因为脑袋顿时空白了；脑袋空白，因为没有做笔记
后来有做了笔记才比较可以连接他们的话题，但是还是觉得自己没有做得好
还有，当然在分享中麻雀也从学长身上获益了不少
尤其听到凯霓的“丰功伟绩”，更让麻雀自愧愧人
相较之下，我似乎什么都不了解，什么都处在不懂的状况，真是惭愧
再接再厉吧，麻雀
还有另一颇全新的尝试，那就是早课
这一次我是负责敲木鱼的（忘了称之为什么了）
犯了很多错误，真是惭愧，希望佛陀会原谅我哦~
不过真的很开心自己开始想要学习，也感恩咯咯老板还有幼儿园老板给予麻雀的机会（虽然咯咯老板并没有教到哦）
另外，今天看到了我的搭档苦了，说自己没有做到什么
其实这才是我该说的，因为缺席了会议，而让自己不了解整个structure，也让自己很无所事事的，又是惭愧
第一天原本会迟到的，因为当天的课到下午五点，然而老师早放了
也在机缘巧合下，看到玲香（对不起，因为我知道自己写错了名字）的车到来载邻家的依琳，就立刻喊着依琳他们载我去
后来到达了近打佛教会，看到各理事们都在忙这忙那的，我又帮不上忙，真的内疚
对不起，大家
没有好好尽自己的责任，麻雀下次会好好加油的！

法句经（之一）

I went to Dharma class today. I was lazy going before, I meant before Year two semester two.
It means that I have lost one year + one semester chance to hunt treasure thus I got to be doing more right effort
I have been told by others that the dharma class for this semester is pretty fun as it is full of stories(stories with great teaching)
Then I have been waiting for it until today. It proved my waiting is worth.
As if you did view my articles this few days, they are full of negative emotions
Teaching today has enlightened me
I will say the class is just awesomely fit for me when I am in such condition
This semester, sir will be sharing the sutra "法句经“ with us
The first sentence he told us today has already a great knowledge for me to discover and to practise
It is " 诸恶莫作，众善奉行，自净其意，是诸佛教”
Sir said that if someone ever asked you what Buddhism about, you can present one this sentence as it embodies all
To translate, it is "Don't do bad, do good, clarify your mind/brain, this is the teaching of Buddha"
It is easy to talk yet hard when come to walk it
When your attitude, words and thinking have ever hurt people
Or when you are expressing negative emotion to people
You are doing bad
I admit that I have done bad through my blog
I am sorry to whom I have ever hurt
Try to be more understanding, respect people, and wish people even they did wrong
Praise one when they do good
Face and solve the problem with a positive thinking and mind
Then everything can be solved smoothly and positively
This is the thing I need to learn and keep firmly in mind
That's why I love Buddha teaching, always can find the answer I want~
Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Sammasambuddhassa

Happy Birthday to the weird one

I have done another card for my dear friend yesterday, a good and improved record that I able finish it in two hours this time
It was the birthday of a photographing crazy fellow who I know in UTAR
I usually make card according to the taste or the hobby or the favourite of one (if I have time)

can you see the "Happy Birthday to u" in the lens?

When came to this crazy fellow, there was an image flashed on my mind that I am going to make him a "DSLR"
Thus I searched for the old photo from year one trimester one until today, just for his little tiny yet big DSLR and imitated it

His DSLR is SONY, yeah, I know

The most weird and funny card I have ever done

I made it 3D as well this time and it looked weird and funny
When I was annoyed with its really weird looking, a sudden comfort came to my brain again
Weird thing suits weird people

3D DSLR with its logo (and someone complaint the lens is too short)

Hence, I guessed he will like it and it will find a good owner who shared the same element with it
Which is weird...(wakaka...)

Happy Birthday to you, my best buddy!


OH CHIN ENG

I am willing to bear my fault

I, recently, unbridledly expressing my discontent with a direct words through my blog
I find no way to release and I ain't like that kind who will depressed oneself and it is always hard to speak to people face to face
I chose my very way to express my thought yet I have never known that it hurt people
It is my fault if I did hurt people
And at the same time I find I shall never put my true feeling in this such a public space
When an artist is disallowed to draw
When a calligrapher is forbidden to do their calligraph art
And when an actor is prohibited from continue acting
It is pitiful and they will feel the useless of themselves
This same applied to a blogger who is not allowed to express their thought in the blog
Helpless, as I did hurt people with my words
I sincerely apologize to one who hurt by me
And I would want to clarify that my intention is not to hurt people but just expressing the truly me and for the nicknames given, it is my blogging style
There always are particular writing styles for particular blogger
If you cannot bear it, I will stop putting your name on my blog
But no worries, this blog can be considered partially disabled as you will never see my feeling here anymore

I am a Buddhist

And I see there is a long way for me to learn to be more compassion and shall never blaming or complaining others
Thanks~

O happy days

I skipped class today. My first and second Creative Strategy class which we are longed for times.

We have been waiting for it. To more detail, should be saying we are waiting for the trailer/MTV reproduction.

It is time for us to play enough enough and it is time for us to build our "rapport"

I shall very often and very hardworking to like people's status and leave comment from now ^^

The world is always so realistic

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I am so lucky

I asked my dear sister if she can give me my birthday gift earlier as I have been anticipating for it since after she promised me

And she said: ok la, I will ask my friend to help me buy one.

Woohoo..yet I am not sure when will it be because I could not go back home this short semester

I am too busy

Besides, she throw a happy yet vexing question me last Saturday.

She asked me if I want to go Vietnam or not. She will sponsor me!!!

She said she will SPONSOR me!!!

She said： I want to capture the view of the tremendous amount of bicycle along the road

So you will be the photographer.

This is what she told me!

The offer is so attractive and enlightened

However poor me have turned down her offer...(not completely turned down la. just told her I am busy and not sure whether I can make it or not)

I want to go travel!!!

嘟嘟嘟，火车开动了

这个假期，麻雀比起以往，多了许多乘搭公共交通的机会，尤其是KTM。
而举凡搭过KTM的大马人或旅客，必定会知道近几年来多了Lady Couch这个服务。
Lady Couch，女人包厢，顾名思义，是女生专用的车厢，反之就是男人不能踏进的车厢。Lady Couch多在列车的中间部分，外面贴了其双马来文与英文的海报兼告示，以提醒公众。
然而所提供的这个方便，并不是每个人都遵从。
好几次，在乘搭女人包厢时，都会瞥见三五只小猫般的男人出现在包厢内。明明就不是身形娇小的小男人或抹上粉彩的假女人，但却大摇大摆地走进女人包厢。这个时候，麻雀最爱环顾周围的乘客。每个女人都会表现出一副不屑且藐视的嘴脸。我该照一照镜子，看是否自己也是如此。
然而，不知是瞧不见抑或是装着的，男人依旧坦然得找着座位，一屁股就霸占了那些位子。
这一天，麻雀还是乘搭KTM到吉隆坡去。同样的场景还在重复着。包厢里几个男人的身影依旧是无可避免的。麻雀忘了用镜子照照自己的表情，便找了一个依靠着窗口的位子，坐了下来。接下来的几站，男人就像完全看不懂告示的指示一样，如此豪迈的步入车厢。麻雀在想，难道马来西亚的文盲率如此之高？
而，就在大伙儿坐着，等着火车继续前进的当儿，火车的广播器“嗒嗒”地发出声音来。广播器报告着：To all passengers, lady couch is only for ladies. Men are prohibited to enter. If not, the officer will take action. Thanks. 报告以双语来传达。
麻雀赶紧抬起头，望向车厢的男人们。只见男人们焦虑的表情，大家互看了对方，便即刻站起身子，就像大狼夹着尾巴般得逃出包厢。看在麻雀眼里，着实有种鸟兽作散的感觉。对他们，有种抱歉但放心的双重情绪。
麻雀，趁着前往吉隆坡的路上，仔细想了想这套方式。
女人在这个社会里，难免会遇到吃亏之事。在这个大家嚷着要平等的社会里，女人们也站出来，高声喊着男女平等的口号，而女人包厢的出现，又是否会与男女平等的理论，打着对台呢？男人包厢，会不会在下一刻出现？
在一个拥挤的男女共用包厢里，女人吃尽了亏。一些邪念的男人会有意而无意地，“不小心”碰撞到与其挤成沙丁鱼的女人。女人，哑口无言。不知如何是好。或怒瞪男人但却採无方法；抑或压抑自己的无奈，把“小事”化成“无事”。
麻雀曾经经历。那一次与友人从云的顶端回来，乘搭KTM回巴生。碰巧遇上了放工的繁忙时段，车厢满满的挤着形形色色的乘客，且当时尚未有女人包厢的实行。在无计可施的情况下，麻雀和朋友硬着了头皮挤进车厢。倘若翅膀还丰腴，麻雀必定耗尽全身的吃奶之力，踩着云朵回去。
由于乘客过多，麻雀与友人在车厢内“散失”了。只剩麻雀独自挤在一群男人之间。眼见就坐在前面的乘客起身欲离开，麻雀便二话不说地坐了下去（太不喜欢挤在这男人味间）。原以为踏出阴霾的麻雀，一抬头之际，吓倒了。眼前尽是魁梧彪悍的外籍男人。在望望左右，也是！最叫人发憷的是那些大汉悚然的眼光，那在你身上游走的眼神。麻雀赶紧又低下头，真的无法正视他们，太恐怖了！
这个时候，就像听到警察信号的强心针，麻雀听到友人在呼叫“佩霜”。不管三七二十一，麻雀赶紧穿过那些外劳之间的缝隙，也不管朋友在哪里，就是跑就对了。
这就是女生在拥挤的包厢里，发指但又无奈的情景。因此在女人包厢初行时，麻雀简直是喜上眉稍，相信所有的女人也会如此的开心。
但是这个却违背了男女平等主义。
倘若是平等，女人不该拥有自己专用的包厢。若要拥有，男人也该有一个吧。因为平等啊。
或平等，或自我保护，你们自己选择吧

离。别

周末晚上，妇人抱着要回到自己工作地方和居所的孩子。伤心地话别着。
妇人满怀不捨，以悲伤的口吻说道：今天抱了一个，明天又要抱一个了。
生离死别，这是必经之道，人生，也不过是如此。
在因缘具足时，遇到了有缘人。当因缘散失了，你想要不离也不由得你选。
当回到了这个现实的世界，每个人为了追逐自己的梦想；为了养家糊口，不得不离家背井到远方工作。或为增扩自己见闻，选择与友人分道扬镳，离家到海外留学。
显然，这样的画面，不时在我们周遭上映着。
不要伤心，不要不捨，因为离别是为了成就更好，为了造就幸福人生。

Check check check

Frankly speaking, I haven't checked my result yet
I was at Lukut when the result released
I could not check and have no dare to ask friends to check for me
Thus I decided to check only after I am back to my home
But the point now is not I don't want to check but I could not check
The terrible UTAR portal is seriously "a-ma-zing~" until I cannot log in to the website
Sigh....I have no idea when only I can enter UTAR portal....
Aiz....
By the way, congratulation to those who passed the paper
And all the best for others~

道歉文

假期即将进入尾声了
或忙碌，或逍遥，麻雀找不到什么言语来形容这一次的假期
因为既不充实，又不闲来发慌
心想趁着假期结束前，赶紧回顾自己还有什么漏了还没做的
突然脑海闪过了之前答应山竹学长做的事情还没做！
想当初，还信誓旦旦得说过几天就寄给他，结果假期快过完了，一点成品都还没出来
哎。。这个破记忆，几时才会好好尽尽reminder的责任啊
待会儿要去森州的芦骨，参加三天两夜的梵呗之旅
所以学长的东西，星期六才可以做给他了
真是对不起！
还有我们的JR Gathering啊！！！
原来想游戏是那么的煎熬的，有谁人有什么建议啊？

Books~~~~~~~~

I felt happy and proud for myself that I have managed to finish two books during the holiday
And now I have proceed to the third one which I have read a few pages before the break
However, it is somewhat sound sarcastic that the two books I have read is the new books which I bought in the holiday but not those books I bought before and the one I told myself to finish them in this holiday
The one I brought back from Kampar to Klang, I have not finished yet( have read 12 pages but left 358 pages to go)
And I can see still many books lying in my Kampar house are waiting for my approach
Meanwhile, they will have new friends when I go back...
Sigh...when only I can finish them...

Waiting for my new lover~

I can't help anticipating for my 22-year-old birthday right now since after the promise made by my sister
She promised to buy me a DSLR (or perhaps give me hers, I also willing lah, ok)
At first, I didn't expect too much
I got to know her saying from mum but not her at the beginning
So I put aside my hope because she did stand me out previously
Yet when she told me by herself, by her own mouth, with her sincere expression(a face of "I will buy you!")
I knew I can expect from her
And when I commented in her Motor GP album and with her promise publicly
It assure me more that she will walk her promise
I didn't ask for a totally new DSLR, as long as it is useful and I can handle it well
It is the most precious present already.
Thank you first, Sister~^^
By the way, I started seeking for information of DSLR
And I started thinking of what I will do with it when I got it
Where I will go to do my shooting and so on...
Can't wait for it, my new lover!!!!!!!
Few more months!!!

I saw a news unintentionally from TVBS news just now

It is regarding the miner in Chile who were trapped under the hole from last few months

If not mistaken, I saw the news before my last semester's Final

I felt relieved for them and happy for their escape

Especially when they are still so energetic that can jumping there and here

Cheers men....

我的爱人

太天真，太傻了，以为麻雀的电脑需要入院好几天
结果交给了维修员，他让麻雀填了warranty的表格后，就说：你等一下啊，我去拿新的零件“
心想，难道要等很久
结果不到两个字的时间，他回来了，把新的零件装进我的爱人里面
就叫麻雀检查看可不可以用
太好了！省下了时间，也省下了医药费。。。^^
有warranty真好！
而且ASUS的warranty都是两年的哦
太爱ASUS了，今天开始麻雀有爱人了
不过还是要预告大家，明天麻雀要去芦骨咯~
好期待这个生活营~

待会儿，麻雀又要乘坐那不停转站的班车，去到隆市，把这陪伴麻雀几个月时光的电脑送进医院，整修啦~（趁warranty还没过）
对啦，要暂停几天了，待下次再见啦！

I am going to send my dear to hospital later before the medicine fee is still free.
Thus, see you guys few days later after my dear recover from its CD rom sick~
Bye bye
And Good Days~

减肥人生

曾经，很自豪自己的健康
现在，蹲下起身会晕眩了
曾经，很庆幸自己都不会像其他女生那样每个月会经历那种痛
现在，会痛了，好在自己还蛮耐痛的，还可以去爬山呢（哈哈。。）
曾经的自豪，现在已在逐步的瓦解了
深知，这是减肥的后遗症，重点还要是竟然还是瘦不下来！！！
想当初，小学时候还拥有匀称的双腿呢，也曾经是班上数一数二蛮高的，然而现在呢。。。哎。。。
中学时候，高中吧，开始实行减肥计划了
从此减肥的人生开始了
我的体质特性，是那种就算喝开水而已都会发胖的
因此我一定得节制食量、一定得运动才可以瘦
不节制食物，但持续运动，依然能够维持短暂的享瘦。当福报享完后，就会开始发胖了
节制食物，不持续运动，肯定会发胖
不节制食物，不持续运动，丢进大海，必定石沉大海
这就是我的体质，经过多年的钻磨得到的结果
兜兜转转，转转绕绕，绕绕兜兜
我还是在原地踏步，没有瘦，但好在也没有更胖
而。。。

曾经看到作家，春上春树写的《跑步》，里面也提到了作家亦是一个易胖之人
因此他得用运动来维持体重，保持健康水平的身体
而他的妻子，却讽刺的是那种怎么吃都不胖的人，她尤爱甜点更是令人双眼冒金
然而，春上春树，却有不一样的想法
因为会胖，他选择了运动，因此身体强壮
因为怎么吃都不胖，妻子都不运动，因此健康相对地不及他
看似自我安慰的推断，为了让自己更心安，更自在的说辞
然而，对于我而言，我是举双手认同的
在我身边（上了大学更多），都是那种吃了几盘饭后还可以吃甜点的女生
在这样的环境熏陶下，懊恼为什么自己并没有也感染到他们的好处呢
但是我也不会太悲观啦
因为要瘦下，我特别关注吃的食物的卡路里、分量、健康价值等。当很多朋友现在大大声嚷着哪些食物不健康不好时，我其实几年前就懂了

我懂得什么食物对身体好，什么水果会瘦哪里（但我总是不能持续，且通常比较贵的水果营养价值较高，如草莓可以瘦腰。。。），所以我对于食物也有些许的认识
因为要减肥，我上健身室，进而我对于健身的一些动作，有一定的认识（也认识了一些教练）
因为要享瘦，我去爬山，因而促使我的体力还不赖
因为要瘦身，我早起跑步，因此认识了一些（老）邻居，也练了自己的体能
因为要瘦，我苦苦学骑脚车，因为要找到一个每天都一定要做的运动（骑脚车上学），造就我现在可以骑很远，比很多会骑脚车的朋友更厉害了
因为这个减肥的过程，我虽然得不到瘦身成功的结果，但，我获得的也并不少
虽然总是不能成功，但我不会放弃啦
虽然自己是个好吃者，但是我的耳朵很薄，听不下别人的“逆言”
曾经为了朋友的几句掖挪之言，我伤心了很久，我也哭问天为什么对我那么不公平
然而那凄惨的哭声，有用吗？那无奈的伤心，又有谁会理你？
渐渐地，自己开始要学会坚强、要逆言不听
我不能说现在的自己免疫了，因为我还是会伤心、会自卑
但是我也不会让自己放弃
减肥计划，这场硬仗，无疑是个长期的一场仗，也是一生的仗争
这场仗，不可以举白旗，不可以中场退出，但可以战死其中（哈哈。。开玩笑啦）
好好加油吧。。。。
待会儿还要跟勇小姐去吃自助餐呢
看来瘦身成功的验收，还很遥远哦
对于减肥者而言，自助餐是最不值得（虽然我爱吃，但我真的每次都吃得很不值得）
然而为了我的旅游部落格，我答应了她
（部落客很不容易啊，要减肥又要去拍多多美食的照片，最好就是和一班人去，然后自己不吃，拍别人吃的，最多借几口来试味道。所以各位要多多支持我的旅游网哦）
说到勇小姐，她也是那种很大吃，但还是一只骨的人（人家身材可好呢）
那天，她告诉小霜：你要减肥不是。我的朋友用了这招，天天只吃一片面包，一旦饿了，就喝Milo；
那天和小小粒外出，她瘦了。她说她用了Nuskin的代餐和营养丸。很健康因为它会维持你瘦后的肌肉（而我很容易瘦了又胖回），但是却要价RM4800。。。傻眼了。

估计这是我最瘦的时期

我宁愿去旅行，啃面包瘦下来

Necessary or not?

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I able to sit in big car because of her
I managed to have Alex Yoong as my temporary ( 3 days 2 nights) neighbour because of her
I got the opportunity to dress in CK because of her
I can wear Evita Peroni's hair band also because of her
I have the chance to rest my leg in Aldo, BCBG shoes
She makes me able to carry Dior, Burberry handbags
I got to opportunity to see different types and season of LV bags(before she started disliking LV, she got many) though I don't have one
I able to have my fine cuisine with her treat
I can live in luxurious life when I with her. I meant when i go to Kuala Lumpur
I can have her sponsor while studying since she has a brilliant job
I can have my hair wash and hair cut in A Cut above
She....is my sister
She started to work just after her graduated
She bears the responsibility to support our financial
*She didn't borrow any loan from government or any association when she was studying in KDU and all are from mum's account
She gives us luxurious enjoy when we go to KL
I told her my future big plan and she nodded
I was puzzled and shocked when she nodded her head
I thought she will broke my dream into pieces and asked me to help out the family after I graduated
She said: You are the youngest and you don't have any burden.
I asked her if she will oppose to my plan
She said she will also do it if she was me
Yet the fact is that she is the elder one
She showed her can't help expression and I can smell her disappointment
I can do nothing but to think I will try to help her out when I able to
I appreciate the treat she has given to us
We able to see many "elite" stuffs and go many high standard places
I can have the chance to carry branded bag when I was 21
This is all given by my sister
However, is that really a need for me?
I, actually, do not really have to enjoy those treat

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I can simply carry a ROXY bag
I can wear ROXY flip flop
I can wear Cotton On clothes
*I only buy cheap stuffs from ROXY and Cotton On clothes are cheap
I can have a simple yet meaningful life without the luxury
My life ain't like sister's
She enjoy her life but I enrich my life
Thou we share same blood but it doesn't apply the same on our life style
I learn to know I don't need what sister gives me sometimes when I stayed in her house
I can wash my hair by myself instead of going saloon
It is not necessary indeed






But I need DSLR from her (she promised to present me a DSLR when my birthday ^^)
So this is the necessary....haha...

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In other words, I can have my life meaningful and happy with travel but not luxury....

She

She is slim and sexy
She is modern and elegant
She is tiny in size yet with loud voice
She looks soft yet tough and brave
She drives big car
She lives in half hill condominium where Alex Yoong is her neighbour(upstair)
She wears AlX, BCBG, CK
She gets Jimmy Choo, Manolo Blahnik, Chanel as the cover for her feet
She carried Balenciaga, Chanel, Fendi
She said she dislike LV as it is too "high profile" with the logo kept printed on every single piece of the bag (exactly)
She has a brilliant job which she really can earn lot of money
She has her meal in fine cuisine five star restaurant
She learns dancing and vocal after work
Her life is free and luxurious
Her life is relax yet busy
She goes travel whenever she wants but at the same time she serves foreigners with our Truly Asia tour
She....is my sister~

I have eventually come back to my space after almost a week out from home, out from internet, out from the ritual space
I have had nice days and "busy" life this few days
I stayed at my sister's house for two days
I went to Kinokuniya to spend my free time
And I bought books after struggling for two days (again, I really couldn't help saving money) (T.T)
I participated hundred people choir performance in PGRM Cheras Maluri

I was one of them!!!

Which I think is a success and a hard work indeed
After standing the whole day(rehersal + performance), I rushed to Ampang Park

The night at Kuala Lumpur outdoor

where I tend to take my first last round LRT ( from Maluri to Masjid Jamek and changed PUTRA line to Ampang Park)
I went there for work in fact

Volunteers are having a brief introduction among themselves

Miss Yong and I with our NIKE tshirt

This time with our Baggage site tag

Allowance RM60 and the thing that attracted me is the NIKE Tshirt and it is also the one disappointed me deeply
I met Miss Yong and Ah Ba & his friend, Ah Ben there where we walked to our destination
We started our work at 6am when the marathon participants reached
By the way, Miss Yong and I in charged of baggage which also called bag keeper
Don't think it is easy. It is the busiest and the risky at which you must safeguard people belongings
Meanwhile, Ah Ba in charge of the road things
Oh, Malaysia is so small that we bumped into Eugene, my senior over there
He joked next time he might be meeting me at New Zealand
Then next time in lockup...==...
Ok...so that's it my days lately

The token of appreciation from NIKE...mine's one is the right hand side

Can you see the difference?

The owner(Sparrow) of the nest is out to KL for few days~
Thus I couldn't be able to update and clean my nest until weekend
Just want to say, Let's enjoy your holiday~

繁华。过客

这一天，女孩独自走在空荡荡的草场上。湿湿的泥地，踩得女孩的白色Nike包鞋的底部都呈现泥黄色了
那尚未清理干净的垃圾、纸张，还躺在草地上，等待下一批的清洁工人们来收拾
如此的情景是繁华过后所残留下的影子。
女孩选了一片较为干燥的地上，坐了下来。看着这个即熟悉还陌生的场景
想起了才区区几天前的灿烂回忆，那是多么的历历在目，那是多么得深刻，仿佛就在前几秒发生的事儿一样
几天前，依然欢笑连连，五光四射的游乐场
今天，却只剩黑漆漆而只能听见蚊虫飞行声的空旷草场
人群漫步于其中的风光画面，此时变得如此讽刺的相反
女孩不住地拍打自己小小的脑袋，企图阻止自己再次深陷其中，再次痛苦。好不容易将自己拉离了这个旋涡，女孩心想。
然而脑袋的不听话，让女孩不禁又回到了灿烂的那一刻
坐在摩天轮上，女孩从最高处俯瞰大地
那片美丽的夜景，那嘈杂的欢呼声，还有身后另一个包厢的浪漫情怀
女孩留连在这一片氛围当中，心里总是觉得满满的，很是满足
孤寂已久的女孩，此时在这欢愉的游乐场，就似干柴遇上了烈火，那渴望的情感瞬间像找到了靠岸，赶紧丢下铁锚，不让自己错失了美好，赶紧下船，寻找自己的挚爱
这个感觉是唯美的，是亮丽的，是幸福的
女孩不是不懂得珍惜，女孩惜其如金
然而好景却总是不常在，在女孩还未细细品尝其中的甘甜之时，很快的，上帝一手就将这美满的景象从女孩身边剥夺而去
第二天来到草场，昔日的繁华乐场，猛地变成如今的冷清清。
女孩的心像被掏空了一样。失去了知觉，忘了快乐，忘却了幸福
女孩忘了呐喊，忘了痛哭，因为她已不会分辨悲伤与快乐，因为孤寂笼罩了女孩的感官
女孩不是不明白的，这个暂时建成的摩天轮只是女孩生命中的过客
一生之中，过客之多。每个过客就像走模特儿T型舞台一样，转眼就过。
过了，随即又出现另一片春天
女孩明白的，她是了解的
只是这个过客，来得太急，来得太温馨了
及时在女孩心中扎下了根，渗入心中
当树根硬生生地被连根拔起时，那颗心已被扒得面目全非了
摩天轮虽已被移至他处，想念的味道却还是停留在原地，怎么挥也挥不去了
当天空的黑暗，再次转换成亮光时，女孩站了起来
女孩知道这个人去已空的事实，改不了了
虽然放不下，心也修不好，但是女孩抹去打滚在眼里的泪珠
重整心里，等待下一次的游乐场再现~

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搬家通告 Notice of shifting

麻雀在这里正式宣布要搬家咯！但是只是掰稀客搬啦

鉴于容易混乱的因素，麻雀和掰稀客决定要分家，各飞东西啦

麻雀的鸟巢觉往后会比较倾向于个人看法、意见等

而掰稀客的”踩过的痕迹“则主要涵盖佩霜的旅游经验还有其他旅游贴士

各位，就看看吧

要择一，还是两个都看，就取决于你自己啦~

当然希望你们两个网站都支持啦~

谢谢各位的支持啦~

掰稀客的家地址是：http://wanderer-shed.blogspot.com/

麻雀的鸟巢觉则是：http://suang181.blogspot.com/

Sparrow officially announced that Miss Bicycle is moving to other website

Due to the confusion was made easily, I decided to make both sparrow space and Miss Bicycle's space separated

The early one will be all about my thought, feeling and so on , and is in both Mandarin and English

Meanwhile, Miss Bicycle's website will be all about travelling, and it is in mandarin

So, hope that you can drop by both of them when you are free~

Thanks~

Here is the address of Miss Bicycle's space : http://wanderer-shed.blogspot.com/

Sparrow's is ----->  http://suang181.blogspot.com/

Malacca at Night

 I did not edit this photo other than the frame and the website.
Took it when taking the Malacca river cruise. Some water poured up into our cruise.
I like the light
And I like taking photo, seriously. I need one DSLR for myself.
I am SERIOUS~

Mama, your daughter has grown up

I asked my mum whether I can talk my future with her this morning after breakfast
She said with light-hearted, " Why not?"
Mum was so relax yet I was anxious
It even took me half an hour(while eating my breakfast) to persuade myself to open my mouth
I started. " Mum, I want to go working at cruise after I graduated".
Mum showed her worried face and said, " I always know you like outing" 
" But is it safe?"
"Are you alone?"
I answered her," I don't see any problem to go alone, mum"
"After Malacca trip, I saw my insufficiency."
"There are too much in the world, and I am just so tiny"
"I want to see more"
"Then I want to go to do orchard work in New Zealand after I came back from cruise"
Mum's face even sad and worried. "Why go cruise? You can straightly go to New Zealand if you want."
"Mum, but the thing is I need to have a certain amount in my account only I can go New Zealand. As NZ government scared one want to stay illegally in their country." I told her.
Mum stopped for awhile and said," Last few day, your auntie kuan had just asked me why don't I ask your brother come back? As the family bond is so important that we don't know what will happen next minute."
Our conversation did not continue after a few minutes gaze
I know mum is always worrying of us badly
She always treated us as flower under greenhouse
Once, I bang some hard stuff that me myself don't really feel pain yet in the contrast mum kept asking me "are you pain?are you ok?"
I know this is the love from a mother
But I do not want you to be so tired as we have grown up
I know mum's love to us is tired
We came back late, she stayed awake until so late
We wanted go out in the early morning, she woke up earlier than us to prepare for us
I was hardly to tell you my plan but I wanted to insist my dream
I hope I can make it to insist it until the last minute
I love you, mum
But, mama, your daughter has grown up...
Can she fly?

黃淑惠.-.[祝你快樂].KTV.

在马六甲，第一次听到她的歌声。

喜欢上她的创作，简单却进入我的心坎

给未来的你写一封信

未来的你：


想要给你写封信，颇久了。然而总是找不到感觉、找不到对的时间，留下当下的心情。
今天，天气晴。心情却阴了
心情，被一片片的乌云蔽着
回到家里，心里像被揪着了，被无形中的无形揪着了，放不开
我知道，为何而挂心了
每次走在这个人生道路上，选择，总是不停地向你摆着手
我知道，选择，永远是不可避免的
但是，想要逃避的心情，却总是那么的浓烈、那么强势，明明知道根本逃不了，却还想逃
为何所烦？到头来，大家其实都只想选择一条走起来更加平稳、更加舒适的通道
你的选择，是怎样的呢？
今天的我，看到了自己的想法，看到自己向往自由的梦想
朋友，雯子今天问了我，你在金宝的日子，会想家吗？
我坦然地回答，没有
顿时，发现自己好像很不孝顺。然而也让自己认清的是自己，从以前，到现在，并不念家
我会回家，因为家里的妈妈，因为我有这条亲情，我有这个爱，我有这个责任
然而，我并不会因为想念，而回家
我，其实有自己的方向，我知道，我想要的，是飞翔，是出走
今天的我，在拥挤的电车包厢里，告诉朋友自己的大划
我想要在毕业以后，在邮轮找一份工作，我要环海，我要出走
朋友问我，不怕晕船？我其实没想过这个问题，只知道想要走
环海回来，存了钱，我想要申请到纽西兰打工
一边打工，一边游玩
还有告诉你，朋友就问了我，那你读新闻系没有关连了？
我说了，就是咯，但是我想要做自由业作家，我想要利用自己的旅游经验，写作
或网络文章，或部落格，或旅游杂志，都好。再好不过的是出一本自己的旅游书籍
你会觉得我说得理想，但难行吗？
我只能说的是，未来的路，真的是一个未知数
我能够的，只是望着这个梦想迈进，我要完成自己的梦想，让它不再是梦想
且，我一直深信，有愿就有力，只要是我想的，没有得倒我的
这阵子认识的一个马六甲民宿老板uncle，说了我，很认真（针对gila-gila trip）
我，确实，活得很认真
每踩一步，我都要确认是踏实的，因为我认真对待自己的生活;
你说，这个梦想，不负责任了吗？怎么可以放下将自己养育成长的妈妈而自己出走了
这一直是我心中的深锁，我爱我妈妈，但是我想要坚持我的梦想，不想让他留白
对了，其实我才刚从马六甲回来了，我带了手信给你，我知道他们很受用
这一趟文化之旅，带回来的很充实，很丰富，很激励
充实，整个行程都是满的，身体上的忙，脑袋的忙
丰富，文化气息的薰息下，丰富了见闻；音乐的感动，丰富了自己的不足
激励，世界之大，人之多，才之广，激励自己的想学
我走过了一个激励的旅程，让我想更真正看清楚自己对人生的价值
我，是一个很感性的人
一首悲伤情歌，我可以热泪满盈
一部韩国悲剧，我可以哭红双眼
一次小小别离，我可以伤心整晚
可是，这一次的旅程，却确立我要出走的念头
我或许会哭，但这个不会是永远的痛
我或许会感性泛滥，但是我还是一个捕梦人，逮住了梦想，用自己双手紧握的网子
我想，捕梦人是没有脚的，因为他不能停留在一个地方，他要不断地追梦
而感性，因此也找不到落脚处了
还有哦，我现在是在听着那天买的CD
飘在空中的旋律，不停地旋转在我的客厅
这样的旋律，不是每个人都喜欢，不是大家都能接受
非主流，就是这样，不是大家都爱听的，我亦是
我会随心情，调试对非主流的认同
那一天晚上，我很幸运得听到本地（马六甲）的一位创作女歌手的音乐分享会
这要感谢民宿uncle的牵引
我感慨，我悸动，我惊叹，我纳闷了
我一直认同的，音乐的力量很大，很大，无穷。。。
黄淑惠的音乐，让我陶醉，让我恼
我倾心于音乐的欢乐共享，真心情的写照，感情的抒发
我懊恼于自己的无知
总是认为自己很忙，但是到后来却没能真正充实到自己
没有办法好好掌握一个才艺，一个能干
我，想要学得更多
我，想要让自己充气的满满，非身理上，而是心理上，心智上
我的心，有被Ika（黄淑惠）的音乐，感动且激励到了
抱着热忱，独立音乐那么少人所能接受的，都可以卖出唱片了
而我，又有什么理由，说服自己放下梦想呢？
今天的我，想要告诉未来的你，我要成为旅游家，一个旅游作家
还有啊，为了这个行程，你还记得我特地向大姐借了DSLR拍照吗？
我想说，我就是爱摄影
我可以不上镜，但是我要持续拍照，拍出我心情的照片
我想，我又要开始存钱买一架DSLR了~
好了，我想我就写到这里了。
珍重
梦圆
加油




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人生旅途

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一爬上车子之际，麻雀妈妈便说：你越来越黑了！
麻雀没有惊讶，亦没有懊恼（因为已经伤心过了）
麻雀刚从马六甲“飞行”归来，六点多吧，回到自己的鸟巢
这只麻雀归巢啦~
这一次的古城文化之旅，麻雀看到的，不止是挖到文化上的宝，麻雀亦看到未来人生的一线光
原本在心海里泛起丝丝涟漪的想法，就在回程的路上，在拥挤的电车包厢里，在与友人对于未来的谈话，竟激荡了起来
这一番的悸动，现在在麻雀的心里，还是如此的波涛，亦那么的汹涌
变黑了的事实，其实变成了麻雀踏出第一步脚印的心里准备
麻雀不再留恋白皙亮丽的外在包装，因为了解了其实外观是重要，然而不敌内涵、见闻的重要
麻雀在古城这个文化丰富的城市，看到了自己的目标
在这个地方，麻雀认识到爱旅游的新闻系前辈民宿老板
也在这个地方，麻雀看到音乐的独立性
更在这个地方，麻雀看到自己要的人生
麻雀看到，其实，自己想要看的更多、更广
麻雀确认，其实，自己想要飞得更远、更高
麻雀也看到，自己所会的，其实，真的很渺、很小
从朋友间的对谈，麻雀隐隐定下了自己的目标
自己想要走的路
也在这个对话中，麻雀认识了相识两年（准确来说，一年十个月）的朋友
第一次正式聊到了未来，聊到了家庭，聊到了梦想，聊到了理想，聊到了现实，聊到了见解
麻雀喜欢这样的谈话，也很珍惜这样的机缘
也第一次听到雯子对于生离如同死别的想法
其实，这个人生，无非是无常
能够让自己不后悔，就得把握当下
聊到了梦想，每个人都有一个梦想，麻雀的或许会很多，但最终的那一个就是自由
大家都有梦想，然而梦想往往是那么脆弱地被现实给粉碎了
明白大家背后，揹着的那个担子，而这个担子不能如搬运工人卸下米袋般的逃脱，这个担子是紧跟着的，也是紧随在责任之后
麻雀一直徘徊在这个梦想的三岔路
是要现实，还是要追梦
大家的选择，不一样
大家，选择了回归家庭、挑起这份责任
麻雀，选择了梦想，放下责任，放下情感
今晚的自己，想要写一封信给自己
谢谢雯子和祖哥
享受与你们的分享
开学后再来办一个这样的“谈话会”，我们才能更了解认识了一年又十个月的JR朋友们~