原来。。。是麻雀

注视着前方，我的双目不曾飘向另一方
眼前的这只小鸟，深深地勾起了我对它的万分兴趣与好奇心
这一只小鸟，型不大，跟那鸿鹄，简直为小巫见大巫

这一只小鸟，貌不惊人，不比鹦鹉缤纷亮丽的外貌般亮眼

这一只小鸟，声并不美于人，不像那百灵般清脆悦耳

这一只小鸟，羽毛不比他人丰腴，更不及老鹰的羽毛般丰厚
可，它却有本事轻轻地，静静地扣着我的心弦
我是感受到的，那一股熟悉的陌生感
我，目不转睛
这眼前的小鸟，顶着不亮眼，不受人瞩目的栗色羽毛
个头小小的，喙短但而强健
身上没有多余的修饰可言，但赖于左右脸颊上的一块黑斑，让他们易于辨认
尾巴呈现的小叉状，小而巧
我，不停地注视着
望着几只小鸟在嬉戏，它们在草地上，雀跃地跳着，叫着
虽然声音谈不上优美，但那是快乐的

尽显了小鸟活泼的一面

而当身旁不时有车子经过或学生的铁马轻轻划过时，它便奋力的拍着身旁小小的翅膀
让我看到了小鸟在嬉戏时依旧保持着的那份机警
说的也是，在现在的社会，我们要警惕自己的是
“害人之心不可有，但防人之心就不可无”
它飞得不高，只为逃生，再怎么用力它都在所不惜
我感觉到，这只小鸟，虽不比鸿鹄飞得高，不比老鹰飞得远
可是它向往的是那一片大蓝天，还有蓝天背后的自由

我看到的，小鸟憧憬着自由
它希望有一天也能自由自在地在空中翱翔，而不用奋力的挥动着小小的翅膀
怎么办？这一份感觉很深很浓地在我心里生根了
尽管我怎么挥，都挥它不去
反之地更深更紧地抓牢我的心，触动着我的心里
“妈妈，你看！那么小只的小鸟，多可爱啊！”
我看到迎面蹦蹦跳跳而靠近的一个小女孩
白里透红的脸颊，像樱桃般的小嘴，小而不挺的鼻子
很聪明的搭衣，红澄澄的小外套，配着粉红色的洋装
红红的小鞋子，再用以彩带装饰
女孩眨着一对大而水汪汪的双眼
可谓是人见犹怜，我多么想跑去掐一掐她诱人的双颊

在我还在陶醉于小女孩可爱的样子之际，一把女性声音打断了我的思绪

“亲爱的，那是麻雀啊！”
我不禁不忿地望向声音的来源
这是一位外表不起眼的妇人，却感受到她慈祥的容颜
妇人没有再多的装饰着自己
只是朴素的套上一身运动装
虽然朴素，但不减我对她的好感
第一次，从她的口里，我听到了一个前所未听过的名字
“麻雀！？”小女孩还是眨着她那双大眼，望着妇人
我猜想那是她妈妈

“对的，这只小鸟，就名叫麻雀哦”妇人慈爱的回答着小女孩，手更不住的抚摸着小女孩的秀发
原来这小鸟就名叫麻雀
我还真没见识，亏自己之前一直叫着它小鸟小鸟的
“麻雀好可爱，妈妈，我可以带它回家吗？”

说着说着，小女孩便跑向麻雀，意图用小巧的双手抓着麻雀

当然，此时的麻雀，更是奋力地，连瞧小女孩一眼都不瞧得就飞走了

小女孩挫败的向身后缓缓走近的妈妈撒娇

“妈妈，为什么麻雀不给小茜抓着？”
“傻孩子，你当然抓不到麻雀。麻雀是很小心的，它不会那么容易给你抓到的！”
“妈妈，那你可以带小茜去卖很多小鸟的店吗？小茜好想带麻雀回家”
“亲爱的，你不会在鸟店看到麻雀的”
看到小女孩不解的样子，妇人继续了
“麻雀啊，是一种很喜欢自由的小鸟。他们习惯了在天空上飞，习惯了在陆地上跳跃的，如果你要它乖乖的睡在笼子里，它宁愿不吃不喝，都不会听你的话。所以被我们人抓来养的麻雀，不会活超过几天的。”
看到小女孩惋惜的表情，我心都疼了
但让我侧目的是，麻雀的精神
麻雀，宁可牺牲自己的生命，都不向强势力屈服
不可看它小小的躯体，不容小看它飞得不高的翅膀
它的毅力却不比老鹰强，它的理想更不比鸿鹄小
我发现，自己慢慢地爱上了麻雀~
突然间，我看到了小女孩的视线转向我了
她伤心的样子转为了喜悦
她慢慢的跑向我的方向
没错，没错，小女孩确实跑向我了
我该怎么办？我要怎么做？
我在紧张着的，在无计可施的情况下，我挥动身旁的看似翅膀的小手
慢慢离开了地面，慢慢远离了小女孩
我看到小女孩在我身后跟着跑，而我却渐渐的离她远去
最后的声音，我也听不清楚了
我望一望周围，我在这白白的云间飘着
我在飞吗？
我懊恼着。。。这感觉很清新，很充实
身子轻飘飘的，虽然强大的风力，不时会阻挡我的前进
然而我欲前就前，我奋力的挥动着翅膀前进

这时候我看到了地面上的湖
我喜欢湖水的清澈，喜欢湖面的平静
一个念头从我脑海中飘过
既然来到了，不妨去看看，去戏一戏水吧
我慢慢的放缓翅膀的挥动，身体也渐渐的往下了
我的脚，终于稳稳地站立在地面上
虽然地面给了我安全感，但我难忘那在天空飞着的快感
那一份自由，那一份喜悦，是非笔墨所能形容的
我来到湖边，用手摸一摸湖水，便往脸上泼，想把脸上的尘埃洗掉
我愣住了
映入眼帘的倒影，是小小的头，是栗色的羽毛
是小而呈黑的喙，是小小的眼睛
还有双颊那块黑斑，那个易于辨认的象征
原来。。。我是一只麻雀！

Thought 1~

It has been a long time, I did not hear about Lust Caution and it back to me yesterday when my housemates were watching it, the most hottest and intense part. I did not join them(although they did not ask to also).
I dislike this part, thou it is the so called essence of the movie.
I like the part of their lamentable yet beautiful love.
I enjoy watching it because of its history background, as well as the pure love between the two main characters
However I heard something sounds quite ridiculous and sarcastic to me
Miss An said that he found the movie is boring and dull if without the hottest part
Miss An said he did not understand the plot when he watched it in the cinema
Again, he said the movie is really not interesting and even ask The Pooh if she understand the movie.
I was thinking that it is his luck that not asking me this question
Or else...I will...do nothing in fact...
Honestly I felt pissed off when I heard him kept repeating the movie is boring
It is your own judgment and keep it in your heart
I was once addicted with Lust Caution the movie
I was once writing an article about it
I personally like that piece
I attached it here, feel free to have a look...hehe
http://suang89.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!611ADFE38B206C0F!1187.entry
The love between the two character is dirty, and it is with purpose
Yet it ended up with a beautiful love
The relationship between Wang and Mr Yi was built on sex
Yet I prefer relationship built on love, the pure love
Built on the feeling
I know I am always the conservative one
No one can ever escape from love, unless the one unemotional
Love is the greatest thing in the world
It makes us brave
It makes us live with aim
Let's cheer for it..
Love everyone around you, no matter friends of you or even your enemy
Love everything around you
I always thought " Do not take things granted"
Appreciate everything you have on your hand
You are the most joyful in the world!!!

麻雀与老鹰

其实，我觉得很好笑
我多了一个名字。。。那就是麻雀。。。
这一学期，我多了很多名字
。。主席，李主席，老板，秘书。。。连麻雀都有。。。
这都因为麻雀与老鹰这首歌的成就。。。哈哈。。。
我很喜欢这首歌，在这里跟大家分享

麻雀與老鷹

枝頭一只小麻雀

天空一只大老鷹

麻雀在枝頭 快樂的跳叫飛著

老鷹在天空 自由的翺翔鳴叫

麻雀擡頭看到大老鷹

羨慕老鷹飛得高

老鷹低頭看小麻雀

羨慕麻雀樂逍遙

麻雀和老鷹各有各的好
不需羨慕不必比較
因為沒有誰比誰更好
只有誰比誰更知道自己好

......................................
曲：張蔚乾 27/11/2008，第二版，太平。
編曲: 劉永輝
電子吉他：Jamie Wilson
木吉他：Jamie Wilson
和聲編寫：周翠玲
和聲：周翠玲，程作彬
演繹：朱風華，邱慧穎

这首歌，对我感触颇深

尤其又跟着老鹰学姐一起唱
我们都是同科系的，是不择不扣的厉害的学姐
很多时候，我们总是茫然得往外追寻更多的东西，丢在自己身上
看见别人有什么，就要什么
看到别人有多好，自己就要不能输别人
在这一味得比较下，可能你确实因为为胜他人而进步了
但，你真的得到了吗？
我们总是羡慕别人有多么得好，自己却什么都不是
我们总是垂涎别人的成就，却忘了自己也有自己的好
是时候，看回自己的心了
看看自己其实也很珍贵
在祥和Yeah！唱着这首歌，我心情挺激荡的
除了紧张作祟之外
那时因为台下的朋友
我要求他们来支持我
其实，是因为我要他们听到这些
自卑，非但帮不到我们，反而害我们不浅
我知道有些朋友们对自己的英文没有信心，而不敢发言
但，其实我们身为华人子弟，能够说着外国人的语言
那已经是不简单了的。。。
且，你还有很多优点，还为琢磨的
朋友们，加油吧！让我们一起努力
讲回麻雀这个“头衔”
说开来，其实是只有红老板才如此称呼我。。
一看到我，就“ei！麻雀!!”
其实真的不懂要怎么回应，回应的话，就自认了。
但我的反应每次都是很明显的对号入座吧。。
想到，其实麻雀，这个名字，还不错
麻雀虽小（虽不小），五脏俱全
好吧，决定了
下次就在部落格自称麻雀
反正我想改一改我的写作手法
就从麻雀开始吧。。。

Dilemma

这几天，我站在交叉上，很难地看着眼前的决定
人生，总是这样，太多的交叉路，让我们去做抉择
我，在想着，是要去醒一醒，还是饿一饿
身边很多“专业”的意见，告诉我，应该怎样
且，是一面倒的
我，自己，心里也有数
因为我是应该去培训的，我应该要增进自己的
其实这不是一个很大的选择，不是什么生死关头的一搏
我们的唯一，一早做好了决定
她也问我，怎样？还没做好决定啊
红哥及格格也不断地分析给我听
这些，我都懂
然而，友情，使我却步了

想当初，我是怎样约了祖哥一起去饿一饿
我怎样多积极地呼吁着大家一起去玩一玩
然而，现在的我，又放飞机了

我告诉祖哥我的困惑时，他，当然深明大义得批准我背弃他们
也不多埋怨什么，就叫我去，去提升自己
我，自从开始参与佛学会的活动后，开始疏远了班上的朋友
他们吃火锅时，我上佛学班
他们去夜市集时，我还在上佛学班
他们去西湖吃晚餐时，我在忙于其他的筹备
我不后悔，因为我欢喜做
但，这一次，当我背弃了他们，就如背弃了自己的诚信
也不想拿起了承担后，放下我的班
所以我一直很懊恼，很困惑，迟迟不作决定
或许事情没有我想象的严重，可是我确实看到了它的存在
我记得老鹰学姐曾经分享过的，在她任椅子人（copyrighted from 唯一）的时候
她发现自己与班上的朋友疏远了
因为她太忙了
然而，我还没有这个准备
我不想顾此失彼
这才是我真正的困惑
其实现在已多说不用了
因为在某个人说明的“非强迫”的情况下
我还是做了决定

(摘自 http://cityben.blogspot.com)

我选择了佛法，我选择了提升自我
我不会后悔自己的决定，因为我一早已有属
只是放不下朋友
我想我会更加努力得去维系与朋友的联系
因为我的生活，少不得朋友啊。。。

movie review

I have finished watching the movie which Mr. Wind recommended (from his facebook status).
It is a old movie which regarding the ancient rome and Christian in the old time.
It called " Quo Vadis". Frankly speaking, I have no idea what it means.
I got some inspiration from the movie, in term of the political perspective, not the religion view.
Undoubtedly, the Christian message brought out from the movie is strong and impressive.
I was touched by their belief. Yet it does not touch my heart, my thinking.
I would rather believe that our life is on our hand but not on our god or our religion.
Religion is a pillar of our mind but not dominating our life.
It is a way to make our life better.
I like the say that Buddha is a doctor who give us medicine (buddhist teaching) whereas we are the patient.
We are the one who decide whether to eat the medicine or not.
Thus it is always on our hand whether to change our life or not.
First thing first, i have better continue to my topic.
The GREATEST emperor of the past time are tyranny, can i say like that?
At least the Niro of Rome was.
It is funny when you see a leader burned his own land, his own country, his own people
In order to create a not beautiful art...
As we study, a country consists of law, leader and people.
Ridiculously, the leader dislike his people.
This is the ancient Rome.
Leaders nowadays LIKE their people so much
Presenting them sweet, giving them milo, buying them rice...
See, how they love us?
Is it we should appreciate the love from our authority?
Shall we be honour being in this era?
It leaves to you to think yourself.
I went for Teck Joo and group's presentation.
It has been so long that we(PC and I) did not study politic.
We went to their Political Philosphy class today.
We heard their presentation in the way that understand half and not understand half.
We do have question to ask yet we did not ask them
They were talking about the social liberty, freedom of speech
I was thinking, if it really apply to our country.
What will happen then?
Do our country suitable with the thought?
Is it applicable to our country?
I have no idea of the question as I did not ask in the class.
I will do some research first.
If you have any idea, kindly leave some.

偏僻的冰凉

印象深刻，小学的看图作文，常常都写到在一个炎热的下午，小明步行回家。回家的路上，他看到了路边摊卖着冰冰的凉水。于是便停下脚步，买凉水来解渴。结果当天晚上，小明上吐下泻。
这样的故事，小学写了不少，不论是华文或国文，似乎已司空见惯了。
道德教育的课本也告诉我们，不要随便喝路边摊贩卖的水或吃其贩卖的水果，因为肮脏。
这些道理，我们从小就懂了。。。
告诉你们，小妹刚刚才与Z小姐吃完杂果冰回来。
而且，真真实实，是真正的路边摊哦。。。
可是我吃的是水果冰，不是和水或吃水果，应该没问题吧。。。我想
我可是闻名而来的啊
绕了不少冤枉路，最终call一call老鹰学姐，才找到了这个隐秘的auntie摊
红老板，这一次我可以好好推荐这一摊美食了

auntie摊是在从新镇前往旧镇的小路旁的另一条小路旁
很抽象吧，下次找我带你去就没问题了
摊子，说真的，挺简陋的
但美食往往就是在这么隐秘的地方，闻名开来的
不然我这个外地妹也不会去啦
我们点的是柠檬汁ABC
Auntie一把ABC放在桌上，我们傻眼了，只差嘴巴没有大开
Auntie见我们楞着，就说：“auntie的ABC材料不固定的，有什么就会放什么，今天没有芒果，所以没有给你们芒果”
眼前的这一碗，就这么大一碗
且，一碗三块钱，真的太值得了，因为太大碗了，料又多又实在
我们还一边吃着，一边偷笑呢
碗里盛的，除了冰，还有碩俄（sago)，jelly，椰果，水翁，西瓜，凉粉，还有椰肉！
虽然没有芒果，但椰肉也不赖

虽说是柠檬汁杂果冰，但说实在，并没有吃到柠檬的酸味
另外，auntie的杂果冰并不甜，这是健康的
而我也不知从几时开始，不大吃很甜的东西了
整体来说，是好吃的，味道是蛮特别的，我想比较清甜吧
最重要的是它的货真价实

说到环境呢，其实大家不要抱太大的期望，因为是路边摊，且蛮偏僻
所以我们是坐在公园旁的大树下
还有，你不会寂寞，因为会有苍蝇和蚂蚁来陪伴你
但是货真价实，已经把这些不足踢得远远了
下一次，我要再去吃auntie的芒果ABC...
在回家的路上，我突然想到了，我还欠纪董事一碗cendol 咧！
还有我从早上要做的阿塞们，到现在，只做了两段啊~~

Updated 6

I switched on my Little black in the early morning
I, initially want to start up my travel article.
Yet it ended up with I am blogging right now
I have also added some new elements to my eave
~Flashback~
I went for Mr. Leong and Miss Ho's talk yesterday.
I thought I will snoring yet no, same to Mr. Jool
The talk was impressive.
I agreed with Mr. Kuan.
Do we tend to oppose something because it came out from the government?
Perhaps we shall do something or preserve something which brings more benefits to the society
I learned something
To successful in creating a peaceful society, the most important is tolerate
We should not kept criticizing and complaining of something
Sometimes, we have to learn to tolerate.
When the people have learned to tolerate, then when will the government do?
Will the government tolerate with the people and listen to them? one day?
We do not know.
But I know the most important for the people now is to concern of our own society.
To concern of the minority, to concern of those who needed
To show our responsibility and our concern of being a Malaysian.
Do not stop your step
Step forward and do something for the society.
Do not "amok"!!!
By the way, another thing that I would like to mention
I saw him yesterday
Let's call him Mr. Wind

Mr. Jool labelled him as my idol
In my heart, i was murmuring :" cheh, you also admire him. You also read his blog everyday mah" hahaha...

So we got two Mr. Wind's fans here!!!hehe...

ok, I got to start working out with my assignment- the travel article
Our group is going to do about Malacca, the historical city
And also the hometown of our editor-in-chief, Tun Nigel.haha....

承担

其实每天都到“部落客”(blogger)报到，但都是到别人的家拜访
自己的手却懒得去按键盘上字母们
想当初成立部落，是为了延续写日记的习惯，但现在却为这些怠惰所左右了
这个星期三，撰写了我人生的另一端历史的开始
我选择了，承担，佛学会的事务
要说突然的吗？非也
因为一早已知道了
有时候，其实还在想，我的心，做好准备了吗？
这个答案，我还没找到
很多时候就一直在做在做在做
我想，我应该要好好想一想这个问题了
秘书，这一职
虽在筹办祥和Yeah的过程中，接触了不少，也多少了解些许
但，它，还是陌生的
以前当过不少学校的干部，但就却文书（秘书）这一职
我就是没当过
能不能驾驽它，我不能拍着胸口，跟你说我行！
但我会学习做的更好啦。。（好像很公式化）
证严法师的静思语中，“有心就有福，有愿就有力，自造福田，自得福缘”
只要我们想要的，就能开发不限的潜力
言归正题，我选择了承担
我会好秉持
为承担而扬帆，为延续而启航
这一次，真的是第一次承担佛学会的责任
我知道这会是不一样
也知道，要抱持的心态也会不一样
甘愿做，欢喜受
佛学会的人很不一样
我也深信我会从中学习到很多很多。。。
就像珮嘉讲的，我要做一个海绵
帮能够吸收的都吸收起来
好好加油吧。。。新任的执委们
也希望能够与你们好好地合作。。
也望新任主席不要忘了出粮给我们这些小小的打工仔！！！哈哈。。。
加油吧！！

部落清洁女工

老板投诉我的部落布满尘埃了啊！
哪敢不唯命是从呢？
当然赶紧收一收拾，布置布置
说到灰尘啊，其实真的很懊恼的
今天从学校回来，一看就看到那又垃圾堆积如山的垃圾桶
再看一看我们装盛食用水的盘，每次都空空如也的，但这次还好，还留有些许
又， 我重复着一样的动作
绑好垃圾袋，拎着就往外走去
这一次，不同的是，有人内疚了，还帮我开门了
要喝水，就自己煮；
丢完垃圾，就自己拿出去；
为什么每次都要让垃圾塞得满满，然后掉下来了，还是没人愿意去丢？
甚至把垃圾放在垃圾桶旁边？
为什么每次把自己的水瓶装满后，就不理别人有没有得喝，而一走了之？
为什么不想一想自己以后有得喝吗？
当然有得喝啦，因为有人善后嘛
我每次看到这些，虽口口声声说，不要，我不要再做了，留给看不惯的人吧！

但，每每埋怨了之后，我还是要做
因为我就是看不惯的那个
想了想，其实我也是住在这个屋檐下
我有责任做这些，而根本没有埋怨的必要啦
当做减肥啦~

淑女，离我不远

我学那保罗大帝
我预测啊，最近，我会成为几天的淑女
为什么突然有这样的决定？
其实，非也。。。我是必不得已的。。。
我没得大笑
我没得大吃
我没得大声说话
凡是牵涉到嘴巴的大事，我都不能做！！！
疼痛啊！！！
可怜啊！！！
嘴巴啊！！！
50块啊！！！
嗯。。。50块？很懊恼吧？
这50块，实为小妹我，昨晚在紧要的世界杯决赛前几十分钟，去看医生了
故事说来，一匹布般长
所以说结果就好啦。。。
就在数分钟内，我花了50块，去医治我毫不起眼的小嘴
值得啦，至少知道自己对护唇膏敏感，也有药吃
值得啦，好过没有药医。。。
现在顶着敏感的小嘴，我必不得已要当淑女了。。。。

听听别人的话

看看别人的部落格，是件开心的事
我特享受这样的喜悦
每天都会查看别人的佳作，关一关心别人的近况
听一听别人的心声，笑一笑别人的笑话
偶尔留一留言，踩一踩别人的世界的泥土
偶尔会看到蟑螂的影子，(最近一直看到）
还好没有吓倒我这个怕蟑螂的人
最近浏览我一个学长的文章，成为了我的习惯
因为从他的文字间，流露了许多的诙谐词句
看到他与蟑螂的暧昧之情，最令我敬佩
如此恶心的蟑螂，在他美丽的笔杆下，还是那么恶心
洋葱妹妹那么得亲切。。。等等
太好笑了。。。
我真的太羡慕与佩服他丰富的想象力
时常想着，想要当一个记者，是不是也需要这样的想象力？
那就惨了，我笑就会啦。。。哈哈。。
还有，觉得不错，至少找到了以后读书遇到窘境时舒解的地方了。。。
补充，学长的幽默与异常，从facebook的status也看得出。。。哈哈。。。

就是有事

这一刻，我不会说我没事
心中的火，还在
记得太平护法苑的副主持，Bhante Kumara告诉我的，佛陀没有叫我们不可以生气
所以，心中有气，就生气
当时觉得是啦，可是最好不要生气，不要影响自己，也不好影响感情
能忍就忍
也不知道是从什么时候开始，我做不到“忍”了
我会用表情，显示出我的不爽
这就是我
然而，今天本该可以忍的，我却出口了
我说了训话，注意，不是狠话，而是训话
试想想，本该解决问题的
我们都是想为事情好
都想让大家开心，那为什么不做些大家都开心的呢？
每每都喜欢逞强
紧要关头才来说，我给啦，我给啦
解决了问题吗？
这不是解决问题，好不好
这是把那个问题隐蔽起来，让问题越滚越大
想当好人，是好的，但我不欣赏这样的好人咯
而理所当然的，我现在就变成了“欺负”这个好人的坏人咯
越说越生气，怎么都平息不了心中的火
却也不能解决问题
能够怎样？睡觉咯
让一切在睡醒后化为一团烟消失吧

Confession of UTAR protector

I have got the chance of approaching our campus guard yesterday.
I always think to have a good rapport with them as I understand I will need them one day especially when I am major in Journalism, this very course.
Furthermore, I am nice to them because I understand their pity.
Just think, they are the one who receiving order from the authority. They could not have maintained their job if they disobey their mission.
They are also the one who deal with the students.
When there is unsatisfaction from students, just think, who will be the one receiving the complaints? Who will be the one being scolded or hate by the students?
Guards, they are the one.
We all UTAR students, understand the situation.
Our campus does not have enough parking lots for the students. Yet the amount of students is increasing drastically when there are no decreasing.
The response from the campus is that they do not expect this tremendous amount of student in their initial plan.
Hello, you are building an university, but not a tadika. Please consider carefully when you speak that next time. What a ridiculous reason you got for our students, we are no longer a naive student who live in our own imagination, ok?
Back to my topic, I was talking with a guard supervisor yesterday.
I saw his passionate through his eyes and his way of speaking.
"Students hate guard. I know they were talking about me when they saw me."
I feel sad when I heard this. Students hate the guard, unreasonably(for my thinking).
Do you know the role of the guard? They are carrying the responsibilty of our safety.
They have to be strict in order to ensure our properties and so on and so off are safe.
"Student's safety is our first job." this is what the supervisor told me.
People are thinking of our good but what do we who take it granted do?
We kept complaining and revolting instead of thinking of others.
Miss Mok said that we got rules everywhere. We have country's rules and regulations and it is so apply to our university. This is our campus rules, we can only enter the campus with the car sticker.
No matter how hard you argue with the guard, it is useless. They do not given the authority to issued you a car sticker.
If there is no way, why don't we just obey the rules.
If you felt it no way for you to obey, you have two alternatives. One is to complain to the authority, the upper department but those who walking order, ask our campus to give us another better facilities and offer. Then secondly is you can choose to leave this campus.
For my opinion, I always think that is helpless for you to make things difficult for the guards, the less authority one. They have to fulfulled their work, this is part of their job and responsibilty.
People, think twice when you do something.
Always think of others when you want to complain, when you want to do what you like.

Update 5

I was assigned an assignment yesterday, a big case.
Our editor in chief purposely came to our class yesterday morning. I heard Teck Joo said that he was there to distribute assignment to us. I was thinking, who is so unlucky? Even Teck Joo, he just walked away from him when he heard what the chief editor said.
It was 11.45am, Ms Liana gave us break. I saw our chief editor walked toward us. I saw Jie Ee was following him that I thought " Oh, Jie Ee is the one who unlucky lo!".
He stopped when he reached the seat beside Corene. I smell something I think.
Just exactly what I thought the moment before he spoke, I am the next unlucky one.
I remembered I told Teck Joo that I have never reported news for J-on. J-on has fridged me.
Now he gave me the opportunity. I should have appreciate the opportunity.
It was a "crime" news. The editor in chief elaborated the relationship chain of the first party and the third party, as well as the chain of the witness.
Yet we unable to reach the witness since he refused to accept our interview. The chain break then.
I was like a policewoman who investigating a crime. I went to Block B to ask the guard there since it is the first scene the incident happened. Yet, useless, the guard knew nothing. He just ask me to refer to East gate security.
Then, I walked to Block A in order to submit my assignment and looked for my "friend".
Friend, he is a Malay guard. He is friendly and is a chatterbox. I talk to him everytime I saw him as I managed to get some info from him sometimes.
I asked him about the incident. He told me the guard involved was at south gate guard house that time I asked him.
I cycled to the guard house without any consideration.
I knew I got to interview him especially after the first party and witness line has broken. I know he is important in this incident.
Out of my expectation, he was not fierce but in contrary, he is friendly and can talk a lot to me.
I was surprise honestly.
Like what I have written in my previous blog piece, the first party's boyfriend(3rd party) sms me and told me if we do not put the blog down, the police will take action towards us.
I don't know how serious is it, in fact.
I don't feel fear if came to police as I was just reporting truth.
Yet what I was concerning is our media ethics.
I afraid that it is unethical to report when the people involved told us not to publish.
I could not make the balance between it.
I am not scared. I was just thinking of am I an ethical journalist?
I went for our respectable lecturer today during break.
Luckily Corene accompanied me, this is the encouragement from her which gave me strength.
I told the handsome lecturer, M, the whole long story.
I asked M, am I breaking our code of ethics.
M told me, you must be very clear with the objective of establishing J-on. Is it to report truth, to be objective.
Now we got to know this news, this truth, so it is our responsibilty to report the truth.
Exactly, I will always remember the first rule, which is to report the truth.
M's piece of advice reminded me the responsibility of journalist.
I will hold this reminder hardly when I step into the society in the future.
What is important for us who as a journalist is, the truth.
Our job is to inform the public the truth and provide an access for them to the real world.
All the best, Pei Suang.
Wish you walk smoothly as a journalist in the future.
May all my friends the same as well.

It is hard to report truth

I received a message when I woke up this morning.
The content is
 "If the blog post is not taken down, please, do not be alarmed if it is referred to the sergeant in charged. I have repeatedly said over and over again to danny and whoever this is, the problem has been under police attention and both the sergeant and the parent has already said, it is a p n c matter, the post that has been put up is considered slander, if no respond is given, by tomorrow, the sergeant in charged will be notified."

Seriously, i got this message when I just opened my eyes and wanted to smell the fresh air.
Apparently, this is my first time to receive this kind of message...before I stepped into the society.
I have no idea what I can do in fact. Yet, I believe in truth. This is what I heard from Ravi when I interviewed him yesterday.
Initially, both jie ee and I decided to report the news in a more neutral way. Everything is about to report little and little. We do not dare to make it big big. Until when the draft came to our chief editor's hand, he added my msn.
He asked me to tell him more what I got from Ravi.
Well, obviously, he wanted to play big big. Ok, no problem, I accompanied him to play this game.
This is what makes me receiving this message this morning.
I did not feel any fear when I got this message this morning. I thought that he could not have done anything to us since we are reporting the truth.
We have the right to speak out the truth. I always think that.
I opened my laptop then and browsed Facebook, the notorious social networking(say only, i oso addicted with it)
I saw our chief editor's post. He tagged both of our name and our former chief editor yesterday.
Obviously, it is about the things la. I guessed he wanted to talk to us about it.
I have no idea what I can do now.
So just see the situation going la..

加入新元素

我还是打破自己的坚持，把华文元素加入这个部落里来。
最初的观念是，我要分得清清楚楚。华文的部落格就只有华文而已，而英文的就英文。
然而我发现自己没那么大的能耐，我不能同时兼顾这些田地，花园也需要人来栽种，更何况是部落格呢？（哈哈。。好像有些牵强）
不过呢，我还是会继续经营我的中文部落，有空去撑场一下哦。。
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/cute5iris
这几天，很忙，忙到自己的报告要拖到最后一晚才来赶，拖到祥和夜的总心得都还没出来，拖到弘培营的心得报告都忘了，拖到我都不知道在做什么了
我是真的那么忙了吗？
何以还能去金马伦玩一回
我是真的寸秒不剩了？
何以还得以闲暇地在这里吹水
最近和诗莉msn时，我发现了我们的共同点
我们都在不同的地方却同时一样地拖着手边的工作
拖到最后了，才来个临时抱佛脚
我到底怎么了？
祥和夜的前几个星期之前，我每天六点半爬起床，跑步
然而，现在的我，一觉醒来，经已日上三竿，温暖的太阳公公已经在窗边看着我的睡容了。。^^

而我，却完全没有听到调好的铃声响

怎么会这样？

我应该怎样办呢？
不能再坐以待毙了啦。。。
我冲出去！

Today, I have decided to reblog, no matter how busy I am. I should not give up blogging here.
I wanted to blog about Auspicious Night yet I have no idea where I supposed to begin with.
As it is too long to say, too late to talk, to sweet to mention.
I love it.
I have never regretted to hold the post, honestly.
About seven months before, I have made a decision.
This decision has changed my life drastically and dramatically.
Sometimes, I want to ask the people who gave me this opportunity whether he is regret or not.
I always think that if I missed the opportunity to Sasanarakkha camp, my life will be totally different from now.
I might not be able to stay in Buddhist society so comfortably.
I might not be attending Dhamma class.
I might not be attending Yue Xin Yuan.
There are a lot of none in my life now where I have done it in the real world.
I love the life now.
I enjoy it...where I am now.
I have known a group of nice people at which I will appreciate what i have right now
I learned that we should appreciate everything we have now.
We should not have taken things granted.
Friends, appreciate what on your hand right now!!!
All the best!!

After Auspicious Night

Eventually I managed to blog after few weeks struggling with Buddhist night.
Finally it is passed...Our Auspicious night ended, in a touching and joyful night.
I am sure I will never forget that night, that meaningful night.
It is very sarcastic somehow. When you are really free from work or study, you will not think of blogging.
In the contrary, when you are damnly busy, you think of blogging.
I am the one practising this attitude la...so bad.
I am free. I have nothing to do after Auspicious Night
Yet I lagi lazy to blog.
I login and logout somehow, but no any piece of article is produced.
I am becoming even lazy.
I shall change my situation...